I'm Lost Again, I'm Lost Again..

I know I haven't update this for a very long time and a lot of things have happened. There's a Chinese saying "Woman is made of tears", is absolutely right, I don't understand where all that tears are coming from but i can't seem to stop it. There are really no words to describe how I feel or what I'm going through. I feel like I have a permanent black cloud that follows me around, and every time that I have a glimspe of happiness, it will then pisses on me. Everyday passes by and it means nothing to me, but just more and more issue arises which I haven't the patience nor the time to deal with. Grieving has became a daily ritual, first my mum, now my grandmother.. it seems neverending. I felt really bad for missing ei's birthday festivities, but I'm not in a celebrating mood, I just don't want to ruin it for her and everyone. I'm in no shape of seeing anyone right now. Some friends are being insensitive when I needed them the most.. all I wanted it's just a little more attention and a little more hugs.. apparently it is too much to ask for...

NHS + 3AM Swim Thefting + Daiquiris

Ninja High School // Tradition // The Lava Witch (James Anderson?) // Veru Venuto
04.30.06.05 @ Riot House 285 1/2

We're Going Home in a Fucking Ambulance
It was sooo hott! Amy and I arrived at the Riot House at almost midnight after chilling at her ACed apartment watching Almost Famous all evening. We missed all the bands because we were mostly chilled out on the patio until Ninja High School. This is what i love about NHS.. they're absolutely fun and great to see live, always end up a fun dance party and shout-abouts with topless indie boys! haha! This night was no exception, the living room was PACKED when we got downstairs, everyone was sweating and started to take their shirts off after a few songs. Everyone's sweat was everyone's. it was gross. There was a dance-off and i joined but didn't know who won. Amy quickly parted after the show as we went back up to the roof but i wanted a NHS tee so i went downstairs. Greg Collins asked me if i were going swimming. I said no because i wasn't dressed for it, he said "Who cares, it would be fun!" I told him I'll go but i have to go upstairs to get my bag.. also grabbed along Thomas and Steve to join us for swimming.

Swim Thefting
Greg Collins, Brendan, Amy (Heart On), Trevor, Steve, Thomas, Emily, Micha and Chris, all went to Alexandra Park Pool (Dundas & Bathurst). Ryan also joined us. I sucked. For the love of me, i couldn't climb over the fence, so Micha, Steve and Chris helped carried me over the fence. If we get busted, i'll be the only one who gets arrested since i couldn't climb over the fence! haha! I striped down to my undies and went into the pool. It was so refreshing! I did felt a bit awkward being half-naked in front of these people i didn't really know. haha we dipped around a bit then most of the people were starting to get cold, so we got dressed (thank god for the extra NHS tee i bought) and we all headed to Emily's.

Strawberry Daiquiris
As we were leaving the pool, Amy got a phone call from her roommate who informed her the Christie pool got busted. On route we bumped into Leanda, Chris and Wolfgang, they lot joined us to go to Emily's. I had the chance to finally ask Wolfgang about if he was the Wolfgang at Badly Drawn Boy years ago when he first played Lee's Palace. Oh what a small world! Damon sang the name song to us, we were thinking all these years it couldn't possible to have someone actual real name as Wolfgang! Emily made us stawberry daiquiris and offered us donuts and Pringles. Pix from the nite are here. Steve and i left at 4:45am and i got home at 7am. Ooer!!!

Gig 50: Olympic Island

Modest Mouse // Broken Social Scene // Metric // Do Make Say Think // The Most Serene Republic // Triumph of Lethargy // Keren Ann
07.26.06.05 @ Olympic Island

10:34am: Eileen and i arrived at the Ferry Docks, and who did we saw? Our Stalkee, Theresa! We took the ferry over and greeted by Amy H., and she pointed to the direction where we were going. We checked in with Leslie but there wasn't much we could do at the moment so we went over to help Theresa at the merch booth.

12:30pm: So much folding! I went back to help out carrying some drinks out to the tent. Then i went back to the merch booth until Leslie called Theresa and to informed us that Amy H was on-site so we need to go back to backstage.

2:30pm: We muck around the back, there wasn't much to do. We introduced ourselves to the catering staff then we had lunch: sausage/burgers, mixed greens with balsamic vinegarette and potato salad. Keren Ann was kinda boring for a mid-afternoon act. Triumph of Lethagy seemed to be openning for all the Modest Mouse dates since April, was the second act of the day. They were alright, bit instrumental, bit of screaming.

3:30pm: We were bored, so we went over to the catering girls and helped them to husk corn during The Most Serene Republic's set. The singer goes "Oh, that was better than sex." All the girls started laughing and made fun out of the whole thing. Then after we finished we went around to the front and checked out to see what their hype was about. They were good, but not sure if they were up to their hype.

5pm: Do Make Say Think was awesome! I've heard lots of good things about them but didn't realized they were that great. They were another experimental, improvising instrumental band from around the Toronto area. I definitely want to see them again!

6pm: Dinner is served! What we have tonight is BBQ Ribs, Jerk Chicken, Rice and Beans, cob of corn, various of summer salads, fruits and cookies for dessert. Enjoy! It was soooo awesome! TAKE THAT VIP AREA! We have better food and it's all FREE! We were all having dinner as Metric came onstage. They were okay, i definitely prefer Dragonette.

Okay, i'm tired of writinig. I'm sure i've left out lots of details and the bit about the cotton angel but please look at the pixblog. Broken Social Scene was great and as many people as usual. Feist did made a special appearance for Almost Crime and a few others. Eileen and i were pretty much done after dinner, so we went to muck around Centreville.. and we met this cute 2-yr old pug named Romeo. We took advantage with our All Access wristband and went to the VIP Area where i bumped into Karen Kim again! We met up with the rest of the gang after BSS, we stayed a few songs for Modest Mouse until they played Float On then we left the island. The rest of the gang were going to Wavelength, i felt so grossed out by the sweat and sunscreen so i went home. I was very disappointed, after spending the entire day in the sun there was no tan!! Luckily no burns neither.

Gig 49: Final Fantasy has a Good Mother

Final Fantasy with St. Kitt's String Quartet // Torngat
06.25.06.05 @ Music Gallery (197 John St - 416.204.1080)

I can't believe how huge Final Fantasy has became all of a sudden. At the beginning of the year when i saw him at Rancho Relaxo, it was almost empty. But i guess a good secret can't kept for long, i'm glad about his success and he deserves it. We arrived to the venue around 6pm after we got separated from the film earlier. There were a bit of a line up already. Kate showed up not too long after us, so we chatted a bit in line. At about 6:30pm, they started to sell tix at the doors. Zach and his friend Julie, cut in line just in time, as they were the last two people would could get tickets which later on caused a huge fuss on the board. Torngat from Montreal opened. They were an instrumental experimental band, they were good. I quite enjoyed them. I spotted Jeff Harris!!! He actually asked if the seat was taken before the show.. but i managed to snapped a pix of him haha! Owen Pallett dressed in a pink shirt and all white ensemble played a few solos before he brought in the St. Kitt's String Quartet who half were dressed in all white, half all black. He mostly played new songs, only 3 were from the album: The CD Tower Belongs to the Dead, This is The Dream of Win & Regine and Please, Please, Please. Not much quirky chatter between songs perhaps he was nervous about the string quartet or the CBC Live recording. He did a cover of "Good Mother" by Jann Arden. He commented "if i have one of those long jackets, i would be a better singer." So awesome!! After the show, instead of going to Xiu Xiu like everyone else, Nina, Heather, Amy, Eileen, Thomas and I all went to Chinatown for some pho.

Film: Batman Begins

****1/2 USA. 141 min. Colour 2005. Directed by Christopher Nolan. Written by Bob Kane, David S. Goyer & Christopher Nolan. Cast: Christian Bale, Michael Caine, Liam Neeson, Katie Holmes, Gary Oldman, Tom Wilkinson, Mogan Freeman & Cillian Murphy.

05.25.05.05 @ 3:50 pm Paramount Theatre 9.

I love this film. I know, there are always be cheesy lines for this type of comic made sequelles films. The casting was excellent, just look. I <3 Cillian Murphy!!!!!!!!!! The set was beautifully made, especially the skytrain system. This film explained how everything started and i like it how the film ended with the beginning of the first Batman film with Joker. Christian Bale almost has this uncarny resemblance/mannerism to Tom Cruise which was ironic since Katie Holmes was in the film. Seat edging thrilling, a definite must see!

Miss Popular: Jonny Dovercourt's Housewarming Party + Henri Faberge & The Adorables + Ben & Serge Birthday Party

7:30pm: OMG it's so hott!! I went to LCBO and picked up some booze after work and arrived at Heather's house by 7:30ish, we hung out, bought fireworks for Ben's pressie and ate dinner from Ali Baba's (2202 Dundas St W - 416.538.7001).

10pm: We were the first ones to arrived at Jonny Dovercourt's Housewarming party. We had a tour of the space, and we made Mojito's. We sat on his deck and hung out until it was time to me to go to Clinton's (693 Bloor St W - 416.535.9541) and take photos of Henri Faberge & The Adorables' set, i have became their official photographer y'see!


Henri Faberge & The Adorables
05.24.06.05 @ Clinton's Tavern (693 Bloor St W - 416.535.9541)

11pm: Oh god i was so late! They were already on their second last song when i arrived. But i did manage to snap a few good photos as you can see them here. Niall was standing in for Brendan, he was recording or something couldn't make it.

11:45pm: I made it back to Jonny's party to pick up Heather. A few more people showed up but we had to leave and head on to the Riot House for Ben & Serge's party.



12:06am: We finally made it to the Riot House. It was very hott pretty much else so i went upstairs to Brie's room (where the fan was) and hide out for the most of the night. I saw my friend Karen again!!! Zach and I went outside as Bush League was playing, it was way loud and we were just so tired out. Ben kept feeding me scotch "Elsie, do it, you have to have it for my birthday!" Bleeeehh birthday boy!!! Oh god, i couldn't even stand straight anymore, i stumpled my way upstairs and sat down on the couch.. til about 3:38am and i went home.